CURIOSITY...SOMETHING INSIDE!!

I can say for sure, I am probably one of the most curious people I know. Even at the age of 62 I continually am wondering, searching or studying something...I don't think a day goes by that I haven't tried to learn something new. Life is so full of wonderous things and I usually learn something new anytime I really set my mind to finding something out!!!....Many times I paid the price for my curosity..along with others in my life!!..You rarely go down that road alone! Once, I remember when I was about 5 years old. My father was changing his windshield wipers on his car and I wanted to hold the nut that held them on to the arm...I begged him to let me hold it, he conceded. I put it in my mouth and swallowed it. He went ballistic..I thought he would cut my stomach open to retreive it..but no, my mother came to my rescue that day!!! I don't know what he did to put the windshield wiper back on?? Another time I was playing with two pennies and put them in my mouth..they had a very coppery taste and before you know it...Chomp, they went down together...my mother was frantic..we went to the emergency room, I had an xray to find there was only one penny showing up...My mother was sure, I had two pennies in my hand and we couldn't find the other one inside of me...She was positive I swallowed two...The doctor informed my mother what goes in, comes out...and it would be her responsibility to find out where the other penny had gone...for three days after that xray, my Mom had to disect my stool with fine precision...Which I might add was not a happy moment for me...watching her!!...It turns out the pennies went through me as one...STUCK TOGETHER.. The inside of those pennies were as shiny as new and the outsides were greyand dull.. after being attacked by stomach acid...for a few days!!! Then one day, I was so curious. My mother would never let me see any babies getting their diaper changed...especially if they were boys!!!..She hid them from me.. I never was exposed to see what a boy looked like anitomically...Having two sisters and no brother, of course I was curious...why was my mother hiding it from me!! The more times it happened the more I wanted to know what there was I shouldn't see...Low and behold, I just took it upon myself to find out...I had a nickel my father had given me for doing something....and what better way to spend my money then to pay the little boy that lived in the trailer behind us...to see exactly what I wanted to see....So, I thought it only right to ask him if I could see him pee...I would pay him five cents...He willing agreed!!! I bent down and inspected his plumbing. I watched until every drop was out and then stayed to ask him questions about it!!!..My mother never knew about that, I was sure if she ever did she would never speak to me again. On top of being very disappointed in me!! So I hid it in my heart and never spoke of it again...until my sister, Carole, found out and used it as a weapon against me...She made me clean up her shoes, do her chores, and if I didn't she would count and when she got to 10 she was going to reveal my shameful secret...She tortured me with that until I was in ninth grade....holding that over my head..Finally, I got smart and said, Go ahead and tell Mom, I don't care...Guess what!! She never did and my guilt and torture was over!!! I never forgot the anger I felt against my sister for all those years of doing her work and her ordering me around to do what she wanted...I forgave her for her spirit of manipulation and control...and have ask forgiveness for feeling anger toward her...But you know what, "forgiving is one thing...but forgetting!!!.... I find a bit harder to do!!!"